Monday, March 29, 2010


The english name "Jesus" is a beautiful one. Arguably the Sweetest word in the English language (or in any language for that matter). But the etymology or meaning behind the name carries far more than a quick glance could give it. "Jesus" is a transliteration of the Hebrew "Yeshua". Yeshua is a name that is a combination of "YHWH" the Hebrew word for God and 'shua' a word that means "to cry out for saving" or combined "cry to YHWH when in need". It is related to the word Hosanna, which is the word that welcomed "Yeshua" or Jesus into the city of Jerusalem in the first century. History tells us that palm branches were thrown at the feet of the colt carrying Yehsua and the people began to joyfully shout "Hosanna in the Highest" (or "God will deliver us in the mightiest way"), "Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.".

The Jewish men and women flooded to the streets with the arrival of the well known man known as "Yeshua" all throughout their province. After hundreds of years of oppression the Israeli people were ready to be set free and regain their statehood as a nation once again. They cried out to the one who they though most assuredly would bring them the freedom from the oppressive force of the Romans and lead them out of bondage into power, strength, and sweet sweet redemption. "God save us in the highest way"...

Well ironically they got not what they were wanting, but what they "asked" for and they were offered saving in the highest way. But not only the Hebrews were given this offer, so were the Romans, the Greeks, the Spanish, the Americans, and ALL people of the earth. Hosanna in the Highest has come true. Saving in the highest way, but not from the oppression of Rome, but from that of Sin, Satan, and Death. Victory was accomplished in the Mightiest and Highest Way. Yeshua- "God saves when we cry out to him"- is true. His name, his life, and his death all tell of his tremendous love for you and for me. Love so great he is not content to settle for anything less like freedom from Rome, or from poverty, or sickness, or hardship but freedom from Death, Eternal and a much deserved eternal dying. Hosanna has come, and while there is still time cling to him. He loves you and cares for you!

If you do not know how to have eternal life, leave a remark, time is wasting and I would love to talk to you! You are Loved and Cared for by the God and King of all creation. Yeshua and "He shall save his people from their Sins".

In the Words of Henry Wadsworth Longfellow:

"God is not dead, nor doth He sleep;
The Wrong shall fail,
The Right prevail,
With peace on earth, good-will to men."

Saturday, March 20, 2010

The Desire of our Souls.

Oh LORD, We have waited for You eagerly;
Your name, even Your memory, is the desire of our souls.
At night my soul longs for You,
Indeed, my spirit within me
seeks You diligently... Isaiah 26:8-9

Everything in my life is broken. All is lost, in words of William Butler Yeats:
"Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold...the best lack all conviction, while the worst are full of passionate intensity."

I have learned that my life is hardly what I wish it was, and this will to some extent, always be true. I am incapable of fixing myself or being entirely fixed this side of heaven. The worst part is I am constantly pretending that this is not so. I create walls and barriers that disable the infiltration of others into my life. Like a fortress that fiercely denies access of those who pass by should they come with blessings not burdens. I will gladly clothe, care for, and love the traveler who comes by looking for rest. He shall find it, but should he wish to bestow on my fortress some sort of 'traveling mercy' and provide comfort and rest to myself, the drawbridge shall scarcely be opened. Come thirsty to my doors or do not come at all.
I am praying that God will break me of this and am by his strength doing significant efforts to burn down the Castle walls. God is gracious to give us programs of recovery and people who help recover. My past is littered with pain and betrayal. These wounds have may my heart ache and yearn for healing (a healing that one day I will receive in full), but it is also these wounds that make me afraid of abandonment, afraid of intimacy, afraid of being let down, afraid to believe that I can trust another. I have a slew of carnage behind me in past relationships that have had to suffer because of it. Romance doesn't survive in Camelot. If the King of a Castle shows the brilliance of his inherited lands but not the hideous trail of tears he also inherited; he will never acquire a true Queen or any trusted allies. He will be pretending and protecting, but this preserving will not preserve him or his lot it will destroy them both

The verse above is not only how I understand the aching in my soul, but where I find the remedy to these cravings. God is the desire of all of my heart, and the thing I pant for. Thus because he is this I am free to express openly that often I mistake or attempt to fill these desires with other things (success, security, sexual longings, supremacy, strength, status etc...). But these never succeed, they only leave myself and all who drink from them ever more thirsty. All that I am, all that I yearn for, every echo of loneliness and sorrow deeply imbedded within me is for the presence of God. A presence that was removed at the fall in that sacred Garden. He is and always has been the fullness of all I desire, the fullness of every desire. Things have fallen apart and the centre cannot hold. All of creation has been subjected to futility. And the scriptures tell us that this desire when it is allured to the lie that something else will satisfied it gives birth to all of our sins (James 1). This is a common occurrence, and so none of us are quite what we were meant to be. All of us, whether we have numbed ourselves to the monotony of life, with some vice (or virtue become vice) or simply ignored it so long it seems to be 'just the way things are', are really seldom satisfied with the cold reflection we see in life's stained mirror should we be brave enough to look upon it. There is something inside of us that yearns for more. Our souls remember, they cry out in a vague memory that something has gone awry. We miss our maker, he is the desire of our souls, and we thirst for living water whether we choose to drink from its fountain or not.

Help us Lord, your Name, even your Memory is the desire of our souls. Give us strength to Wait upon you...

I am Yours and You are mine.